Surprises.

Sometimes I even surprise myself.

A different way of being - a different way of thinking.

Rationalising things that aren't meant to be rationalised (okay that isn't even remotely new)

Happier with myself, and my decisions, than I think I should be allowed to be.

11:11.

Relieved. Excited. Stressed.

Demanding physically and emotionally.

Empowering.

Enlightening.

I barely even recognize myself. 

voted.

Who pays for the "I voted" stickers?

In all honesty. We need them for uni, but I feel they are a bit redundant in the real world. Just sayin' 

Endorphin

Happiness.

Smile.

I really should not be as happy as I am - but I. Just. am. 

conundrum.

what do you do when you know you have a problem

but you have no intention - or desire - to fix it? 

Ego, is not a dirty word.

A sentiment I don't tend to agree with.


There are many instances were having too much of an Ego can be, and is, a negative thing.


However, there are instances where having an ego (or confidence) is a good thing.


When is the right time to be confident, egotistical [ego-testical for those who remember those days?] or when is it best, to just shut up, smile and be pretty?

I guess I'm falling into a gender trap here. That if I'm flaunting my ego, then I'm not being feminine. Why do I feel that way? I shouldn't. Realistically. I can be a confident woman without it being a real issue, right? yet, it doesn't really feel that way.

I guess a lot of this stems from a deep inner psyche - my own issues with gender roles in society and in my own life. That girls should be seen and not heard, and yet... I'm not that. Not even a little a bit.

I want to say I'm confident in myself - and I don't feel that should be a negative thing.

But the truth is a lot more complicated than that.

At times I am boisterous and obnoxious (read: confident) but realistically I am just as insecure and nervous as the next person, if not more.

Facade? maybe. Question is, why do I need it? Or better yet, why do I want it? 

Happiness.

Should not be placed in other peoples hands.

and yet - it so often is.

peace out.

What if?

A constant struggle of life.

What if I hadn't have...?

What if I don't...? 

What if I can't... ? 

What if I do... ?

What if I can't cope... ? 

What if I'm settling ... ?

What if I'm struggling... ? 

What if this is the best it's going to get... ? 

What if it is the worst?

life. so uncertain.